Mother Aya

All roads lead to Rome. All roads lead to God.

I began my preparation for the Ayahuasca Ceremony last Easter Sunday. Having eaten only fish and vegetables that Holy weekend, I cut all meat, dairy and spices from my diet, eating fresh fruit and vegetables, and using fresh herbs, and drinking spring water and fruit juices. This was a process to detoxify and cleanse the body to optimise the effect Mother Aya would have. It is also a Spiritual commitment and dedication shown to Mother, with reverence, humbleness and respect that you bow to the presence of God. Your sacrifice is necessary to enable Spirit to commune with you, and when you consider who Spirit is, it is the very least one can do.

I had no idea what was to  happen going into the ceremony. I had read some people's accounts of their experiences, which were awe inspiring, and in others I was told nothing happened. There are no guarantees, as is in life, that you will get what you want, so I went into the Sacred Place with no expectations. The Space is set vibrationally high. Mats on the floor in a semi-circle with an altar in the centre, where the healer sits. Blessings are said and given to heart, mind and Spirit, before the Aya is taken. Candles dance shadows on the walls and chanting music sets the tone. Having taken my first cup I relaxed into my space on my mat, covered in a blanket and waited.

My mind raced, filled with emotion. My monkey mind was out of control, heart was pounding. I felt nothing for some time. Actually thought that I had been conned. That was to be short lived. I felt a tingling in my body, I began to feel heavy, my vision began to distort. I closed my eyes and BAM! The light show hit the fan. The colours and patterns were cosmic. I was plugged into the Universe's fibre optic and the kaleidoscope was magnificent. I sensed that my subconscious mind was downloading data that only it understood. Things at this stage remained mild, I hadn't like most of the others began to vomit, as is customary when taking in Ayahuasca.

The second cup was offered to the souls present, and I obliged. Again I went back to my space and drank spring water. The music, drumming and chanting began to take me deeper. The colours and patterns gathered pace and intensified. I could feel a knot in the depths of my bowels forming. A pain and ache that was making me gag. It was like something foreign that was within me had to be expelled, but the release was fought against. It did not want to leave. It started with nothing, one or two lurches of the gut, but that which was within me refused. It wanted to stay. Eventually it succumbed and I released into my bucket. This was going to be done in layers. Just when you thought it was over, more would come. The heat in the room began to rise. The light show intensified and my soul began to sing. Deeper I went, hurling more. I felt the poison I ingested in my lifetime leave me. I felt Mother Earth calling me back to my natural state. I had to go outside and vomit on the earth. I had to release my pain unto Her and thank Her. Being on all fours, on the soft wet green grass, under the stars, and with the mess that was before me, I understood the harm and damage humanity had inflicted upon her. Humbly and with shame, I gave thanks for all She had, and is, carrying and enduring.

I went back inside, lay down and the tears began to well, as angel lights filled my eyes. I heard Her call me deeper. To release all that was unnatural. That is when I took my shirt off. The layers of conditioning and programing began to be shed. This was to be done in layers. There was to be more hurling, more content to expel as I got closer to the Divinity of my soul. With each item of clothing removed the kaleidoscope became more glorious, the chanting and singing of my soul more profound. I have never felt more at peace and in love as I did in that moment. I saw the energy in its magnificence that is to be grounded to Gaia. The beauty and splendour of it, that words literally fail me, and somewhere in all this grand plan, I was to play my part. It was Eden.

I was still lying on the mat, heart and soul ringing out to the Universe, calling for the New Dawn. I only had my underwear on at this stage. Intuitively I knew that for the Dawn to be made manifest, I would have to rise and stand naked before Spirit. To be as He created in the Garden. I was overcome though by my own shyness, and I began to laugh at my shame that I had held onto for so long. I was summoned to rise and stand before God, as He had originally intended, without embarrassment  or self-consciousness to be present. To be authentic and true. I was to own who I am, to claim it. With humility before The Universe I rose hands stretched out, naked. I was King. I stood gloriously in His presence, unashamedly in my complete natural state of being. No judgement. With all my faults and flaws I was loved. I felt honour and respect within myslef that I have not felt in this lifetime. Love of self the magnitude of I am still processing.

Suddenly I felt weak, my knees wanting to buckle. I felt exhaustion come over me. I crouched down, weakness taking hold. The devil came to me and asked that I cover myself for the sake of the other souls present. I complied, but for a very short time. I was not going to be denied my natural state for the concern of others. I uncovered and stood again, defiant. Again the devil came to me, insisting that I cover myself. I refused. If those present were offended then they were the ones who were going to have to leave, he would have to use physical force to get me to comply, and I warned him against such action. The devil changed tactic and tried to use self-guilt as a way to get me to obey. I looked at him in his black demonic eyes, raised both middle fingers to his face and shouted "FUCK YOU! You are done here! You are unnecessary, you are forsaken. I send you to the darkness, the void, the eternal nothing where you belong. This is my time, my Gaia and you will have no foothold here. Be gone!"

Peace came over me. My attention was focused on a woman on the floor, crying out in agony and ecstasy. In that moment she was Eve, and I Adam. The temptation of the apple was being put before me. I was becoming confused and conflicted. We were expressly told that no body contact with others in the Sacred Space was allowed. This was also a place in my mind I had not prepared for. None of it was. It was a barrier that I could not cross. The gravity of the choice was monumental. I stood firm in my decision not to take of the apple and thankfully the healer present understood where I was was in that moment. The journey could not continue. I needed to apply brakes and settle myself.

All souls present needed to give account of their experiences in closing the ceremony. One by one we shared what had happened and what we feel changed within us. I had come to see and understand my Divinity before God. I had come to accpet me for who I am. To love myself for being me. For having strength and courage to stare down the devil. To be proud of having stood naked before God in the Garden. As with anything Spiritual, you are always seeking. I know and understand that this experience will change the trajectory of my life and be reflected in the choices I make in living my life. I have come to understand one thing though, LOVE will conquer all.

I thank God, His Universe and the souls present for allowing me to have this experience and for allowing me to share it with you. I hope that we all make the choice to vibrate higher and become our authentic selves, by doing so we will heal oursleves, others, and Gaia.

God Bless us All!

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