Spirit of Truth

My Spiritual Awakening occurred in 2012. It was my own apocalypse, a death of self and rebirth. The Spirit of Truth lifted the veil and gave me eyes to see the world as it truly is. It catapulted me onto a path of truth and discovery, for not just of who I am, why I am here, but why the world is the way it is. I came to know and understand the matrix we all live in. I lived Enlightened for 3 years after I had come into knowledge, however the burden of such and the lack of progress I thought I was making in my life, and that of others, began to wear me down. I, like Cypher, went back to sleep....I had become despondent, filled with despair, disillusioned, confused and thus, ultimately - lost. I discarded what had been revealed to me as fiction.

My spiritual depression was to take me back to the gates of hell. At the end of 2016 I was contemplating suicide. The futility of life and its seemingly meaningless existence brought me to my knees. I knew my HIV was taking a turn for the worse. I was suffering frequent bouts of oral thrush,  other fungal outbreaks, and at my worst ebb I had been diagnosed with pneumonia. I had decided to help nature along and help my immune system crash. I did not want to start taking ARV's, instead I was using heavy amounts of recreational drugs, crystal meth was drug of choice, injecting steroids and boozing all the while dealing with my pneumonia. It was a low point from which I saw no light. I was alone and trapped in my own darkness.

I was only shaken awake by my clients, I'm a Personal Trainer by profession, and it was only on their insistence that I make a difference and am valued and needed in their lives, that I decided to turn the tide and begin ARV treatment. My CD4 count had dropped to 204 by the time I took the decision to medicate. However, I had not stopped my boozing or recreational drug use. I was for all intents and purposes still immersed in the matrix and it was going to take an earthquake in my life to wake me the fuck up again. Back in 2012 the Spirit of Truth had warned me that should I get involved, I would be hurt by such involvement. It was not so much a warning as it was a foretelling, and I would find that out the hard way.

From when the Spirit of Truth visited me that fateful night in October of 2012, I embarked on a voyage of awakening. I cleansed and purged my life of all negativity as far and wide as I could. I did as much self work as I thought was necessary, but as mentioned before, did not see the fruits of my labour. I had been single and celibate for 4 years and it was the loneliness and isolation from the world, that set me on a path of depression. Having come out of suicidal mode at the end of 2016, I decided that I was ready for a relationship in 2017. I felt renewed enough within myself to look for a life partner to love and be loved in return. I was to put the Spirit of Truth to the test and see if what I had been shown held water. As events of last year unfolded and have proved, it did.

The purpose of last year was to break me, to harden me. To use my strengths against me and shut me down. To make me never love myself or anyone else ever again. It was meant to damage me beyond repair. After having been so close to the edge of suicide, it was to be the final shove I had been hoping and looking for. It was to be my end. But it wasn't. Its done exactly the opposite. Through my healing and introspection, it has brought me back into The Light. It has emboldened me, strengthened me, reaffirmed and anchored me. What was to be my end, has become my beginning. Stepping into my power of Love, the gift that God has given me, my highest vibration, I am starting my journey of self mastery.

I have come to anchor my frequency to this planet, and that is exactly what the fuck I intend to do. I am a Warrior of the Light and nothing is going to stand in my way.

Let it begin....

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